Journal Entry #3 - Anxiety Ups and Downs - Gina Dierolf





“Living with anxiety is like being followed by a voice. It knows all your insecurities and uses them against you. It gets to the point when it’s the loudest voice in the room. The only one you can hear.”
 -Unknown

This quote in my case with my battle with anxiety stands true and tells a story that most days I can’t tell myself. I haven’t been to therapy in about three weeks due to my therapist being ill, but I feel like I’m doing quite well with just taking my sertraline, even though I do miss the safe space to talk about things that are going on or bothering me. I have an appointment coming up Thursday.

Sometime within the past two weeks I did experience my anxiety in a way that only happens sparingly, it’s not all of the racing thoughts over a new ache or pain. But just my brain racing through a bunch of fog, I guess is the only way to explain it. Everything in my head feels foggy and I am not able to focus on one said thing. Normally when this happens I go outside and it makes me feel better, the open space is what helps calm me down. This time, however, it didn’t help and I also woke up with this feeling. This is the one aspect of my anxiety that I can not understand where it stems from or really how to make the foggy feeling disappear.

I believe that my sleeping is steadily getting better, I believe that I am sleeping better throughout the night. I never figured out what had caused me not to be able to sleep a full night. I have still been using Headspace to meditate and I have started using a coloring app which helps me to relax. I have also recently started Yoga classes that are offered for free at my doctors office. I participated in Yoga with this same instructor last summer and I really enjoyed it, it isn’t like what you expect when you hear Yoga.

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